“Don’t make it so complicated Sarah. All I am inviting you into is relationship with me.”
These were the beautiful words of revelation Father whispered to me last Thursday during one of our community worship times.
“Don’t make it so complicated”
In all honesty, I didn’t know that I had. I didn’t see how subtly feelings of inadequacy, of servitude and of pressure to perform had been given room to grow in my heart. How quickly I had turned God into boss and allowed these feelings to create a standard by which my daily activity should be judged by. My idea of what a ‘missionary’ should be and should do, had clouded my relationship with the One who had called me. Making it into a relationship where suddenly guilt was present. Where I didn’t feel I was good enough, driven by this constant need to do more and perform right.
And then suddenly the whisper, shattering lies and dispelling guilt. The gentleness of Abba pointing out the complicated mess I’d got myself in and reminding me of the invitation He first gave me.
“All I am inviting you into is relationship with me.”
So simple and yet so profound. The creator of the universe, who hung stars and planets in their place, who made elephants and grasshoppers. Who could not bear to be separated from us, and though it was me who chose that separation, gave it all that He might invite me into relationship with Him.
A relationship characterised by love, grace, joy and peace. That marks an end to striving and performance, and where feelings of inadequacy meet the face of true love. A relationship that invites intimacy and expects openness. Where the journey of each moment of every day is shared, enjoyed and expressed.
The simple truth that so easily gets embellished, twisted, distorted even. Because the truth of the gospel seems too good, and we feel we don’t deserve it. But it’s us that make it complicated, not Him.
So, a week later, I stand grateful, humbled and loved. So grateful that Abba would point out my mess and lead me back to dance once again with Him.
“I will rejoice in the simple gospel,
I will rejoice in you Lord”
Simple Gospel – United Pursuit.
Love Sarah x